So, hi!

I know this is something I should have done since years ago. I love writing, I love talking with words, I love...oops, this is supposed to be introductionary part.

Hello, I was living inside my mom's womb for 9 months, and was born healthy with the name of Vinilia. My mom gave me that name without knowing the meaning of my name. I'm somehow sad because everytime people asking me about the meaning behind my name, but my answer doesn't satisfy them, at all. Lol.

I'm currently 19 years old (turning 20 this November). I'm a colleger in one of private university in Tangerang. My major is International Relations, before I continue, the reason why I choose this major is because I don't want to deal with science stuffs anymore after graduated from high school. I've had enough.

I'm not that tall, yet also not-so-short; 157cm? Average, right? 

If you're asking me what's my favorite food, it will be foods that made by my mom. But, chicken is my favorite. Anything related with chicken is my favorite. Beef is also fine, but chicken is placing in number 1. Favorite drink? I only drink mineral water; eventhough I'm so lazy to take a glass of water but still...mineral water is my holy grail. Like seriously, no water no life. It's because our body contains a big amount of water, then think about it, what will our life would be if there's no water? Thanks, God. You're giving water for free. 

I'm currently living alone. I used to live at my uni's dormitory, but I rent a room for myself right now. I need privacy too! Lol. I love being alone, that's why I prefer my current condition; although my MBTI said that I'm ESFJ-T, but it seems like I'm ambivert?

I talk alot, but I'm also quiet. I tend to laugh, alot...but I actually a cry-baby.  (keep this as secret, okay?)

I have one father, one mother, one younger sister. My mom has passed away last year in September. But, you know what, I dreamed of her these few days...it seems like she misses me so much. Oh mom..me too. I do, I really do. But, I...we survived! We live our life happily, though we're losing the figure of wife and mom at the same time. It's okay, Dad, Sister. We can get through it.

My current relationship? I'm taken, I probably will talk about him later in next chapter, but let's see...

I think, that's all? I'll continue to the next chapter!

Wow it has been awhile since the last time I write something– even in my notes, ms words, etc.

It's almost 3am and I can't even sleep.

I have something coming up this morning– well, class exactly yet I'm wide awake right now. 

Midnight thoughts surely kill, they said.

I absolutely agree with this statement along with the fact I always wide awake with some thoughts on my mind.

And tonight...I'm thinking....

I'm so afraid of some things that will surely happen in my life. Losing someone that so important in life– I think– is the worst. The questions about life will always come to my mind. Are those people meant to be a part of my journey– whether as blessing or lesson? If my life were a book, what kind of role that they would get in the story? Some people come, some people go, some people stay, some people leave. That's life, indeed. Nobody can avoid those stuffs to be not happening in life. I ever read in somewhere before– it said, "When you're losing someone, it actually wants to teach you how to value every second, every moment that you spend with them. Because if you're not, you'll end up in regret". 

Who wants to live a life in regret? No one, nobody. 

Written: 22th of June 2016. Finished in 3:05am.

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